Eric’s Holiday Blues
Maybe its just a holiday funk, but it seems that my ACL recovery is depressing me a little. Its not that I haven’t made great progress. I ride the stationary bike for a half hour each day (getting a free bike the day before surgery was the best thing I could have done), do leg lifts, and continue my physical therapy with all sorts of leg presses and stuff I couldn’t even think about a couple of weeks ago. It might be that I still am required to use one crutch to get around because of my microfracture repair, or that I feel like a recluse working from home and hemmed in by the cold outside. (I hear from my PT that microfracture repair is all the rage with FL surgeons and everyone down there is doing it).
I guess depression is not to be unexpected when you go from being a very mobile person who lives to hike and is very active to a recovering ACL patient. The winter usually gets me a little depressed anyway. But I can’t even do things around the house like change the air filter (requiring standing on a chair) or bringing out the laundry basket to hang the laundry outside (which I normally do unless it would freeze) or carrying my son to the other room. I don’t know when I can bear extra weight yet.
Ah well, its not like a am a big fan of Christmas anyway. All I want is my pre-injured knee back. Except I know that its not going to appear under the tree. Instead its many months of hard work away. And I know from experience I will get there. I just don’t remember being depressed last time and I had cartilage pain until a second surgery then. Maybe its just the crutch and the feeling that I can walk but it wouldn’t be good for me. Maybe its the painful and numb nerve damage in the shin (although it has improved some). Alright, enough whining. I’ll get over this feeling. Soon, I hope.
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